5 hours and 20 minutes remaining and I’m outta here.
Got a difficult time to write this post actually. I have a lot of things in my mind for the past month, for the last 2 weeks, for the last three days, for the last 24 hours and even up to now at exactly 1: 28 in the afternoon. But though there are a lot of things to write I am literally lost for words.
And I remember this words that someone has said to me back in college “when there are a lot of things in mind and you don’t know how to start…then let your heart speaks.
While sitting on my chair and staring at the monitor with a blank word document right on my face I look at all the scripts I made for almost 6 months of my stay as a ‘writer’. I scanned my very first few scripts with all the remarks / revisions / violent reactions..hehe / suggestions / and love letters of the dubbers (as we used to call it) and upon seeing it I know deep inside that somehow I’m gonna miss it. I look around the office while I let that mushy love song play to serve as my background music…(yes umaarte ako at nagpapakasenti at this point, pagbigyan na…)
My decision to leave my present job in a media production company and hop in to another job in an advertising agency is not easy though most of my friends are really surprised when they learned the news and told them I’m gonna start as early as possible. Yes, I admit I’m kinda impulsive sometimes (or most of the time?) on some things but I can say that I really give my best effort to think carefully and weigh things for me. And I guess as you aged (oh my, no!) your views and opinion on some things in life, love and work and even your priorities gradually changes that in one way or another influence all the decisions that you’re going to do in your life. For all those sleepless nights I had contemplating whether I’m gonna leave or not I also asked myself this question “ Why are you gonna give up your present job for a much more nakakalokang pressure-packed job? Why do you want to subject yourself again to a job with bigger responsibilities na nakakawindang? Yes…some of you who happen to read this one might think that it’s because the offer is definitely much higher. And I don’t want to sound hypocrite if I’m going to say that…no of course not…because come on guys…(sino ba ang ayaw na malaki ang suweldo? Siguro may sira ang ulo nun…) But although it’s true it’s not the only reason I decided to leave.
I guess I’m at point in my life now that I’m seeking for growth not only in personal terms but in terms of career. Kung hindi ngayon kailan pa?
I will always be that risk taker person…I know there’s no turning back but I don’t wanna wake up one morning with full of regrets asking myself why I didn’t dare to try.
I’m not comfortable staying at my comfort zones. Sometimes we need to learn to be comfortable at situation and places where we’re not most comfortable of because when we learn to conquer our fears, do the things we never imagine we can do and being able to turn our weaknesses into strengths that’s the only that time we can say that yes…we become a whole better person. And you can finally say…I did it!
And although my decision maybe not be acceptable to some, don’t worry because you’re not going to be accountable for whatever the outcome is. It’s only me; myself and nobody else will be accountable and responsible to whatever decision I’ll make in my life.
Starting tomorrow my whole world will be totally different. Well aside from changing again my profile in facebook and friendster account. Writing scripts will be replaced with writing business letters and correspondents. The usual internet session will be replaced by attending to customers / client calls. Checking my email account vs. checking my boss account. The comfort of just sitting the whole day in the office will be replaced now by attending to some events and activities required. No more ym sessions, no more unlimited access to the internet. But rest assured I’m not gonna give up writing..period.
2 hours remaining and I’m outta here.
I looked around once again to my “former office to be” located on one of the many confusing streets here in Makati. I looked at the people whom I may never see again especially those people who have touched my life in so many ways they just don’t have any idea of. Surely, certainly I’m gonna miss them. Teena, Joeven, Krystal…yes those people who made my stay in my “former office to be” an enjoyable one.
Our front desk officer Ate Notic who have been so nice to me from the first day she saw me. Our maintenance personnel Norilyn and Kuya Ronald for being so sweet and kind. (Parang thank you speech sa isang awarding ceremony ito ah…pagbigyan at masaya..) My former boss, Ms. Rachel, all those people who have been my acquaintances and have shared little moments together even for just a short period of time thanks guys!
It’s never easy and actually you always end up hurting every time you say goodbye. But as what I learned from Mitch Albom (uy, parang close kami) there’s really no goodbye because if there’s an end there will always be new beginnings. As I will start anew for my new job that means a new beginning for me and a new role in my life to fill in as there will be new other persons to fill the position that I will leave.
I never know what’s gonna happen but I’m sure that I’ll wake up one morning with no regrets because I’m not afraid to dare to try.
1 hour and 30 minutes remaining and I’m finally outta here.